Monday, August 06, 2012

happiness mixed with heartache…a hard "adoption pill" to swallow

As I type this Zoe is on her way to the embassy for her big visa interview. It is the LAST step needed before we receive our travel call! And as excited as this makes me, I am also aware of the sadness that her foster family must be experiencing now that their days with Zoe are coming to an end. Imagine loving and caring for a child 16+ months of her life and knowing that she will be going to live on the other side of the world with a family you have never met. 

The reality is that one of the happiest days of my life - meeting Zoe and bringing her into our little family - will be one of the saddest, confusing and potentially terrifying days of her little life. 

All caused by me. 

It's a hard pill to swallow but I realize it is part of the adoption process - a stage we will get through with a lot of prayer and patience.

So, as you share in our extreme happiness and these amazing turn of events today, please pray for Zoe and her wonderful foster family - all five of them - for emotional strength and healing for their soon-to-be-breaking hearts.

We are hoping for/expecting our travel call tomorrow and I can see now the timing could not be more perfect.


  1. I am praying for all involved. I am so happy that you will finally get to wrap your arms around your little girl!

    If it is any encouragement, our little guy was hesitant around us for the first visit. We didn't stress it--letting him come and sit on our laps when he was ready. Within 1 week he was saying, "I love you" to us unprompted. I have no doubt that the meaning of "I love you" is still somewhat lost on him, but he knows it is affection.

    I am comforted to know that God chose Zoe for your family and Andrew for ours before the foundation of the world. And He has been preparing their hearts for this moment in the same way He has prepared ours. You may be amazed at Zoe's calm and affectionate acceptance of you into her life.

    I pray it is only wonderful for you.


  2. Katie,
    I understand that feeling and there may be times when you feel that again. Know that no matter what, the choice you have made is the best thing that could happen to her. It may be scary for her,but in time she will settle down into her new forever family. Praying for all of you here and there.